An Observation from a American Christian Revolutionary

The elections will be going on tomorrow and with this election, I have been surprisingly at ease concerning the candidates for election.  For one, I have a greater understanding of what it means to be a citizen of the Kingdom of God.  Another thing is that I have a full time job, and am content with my purpose in life...working towards the goal of furthering the Kingdom of God.  But I would be foolish to ignore what is going on socially as far as the political scene goes.

So I've made my intentions known that I don't support either candidate for election with regards to the two party system.  In fact, I think voting for a president at the federal level is a joke.  Both candidates are bought and paid for by corporations who do nothing but prey on working class Americans or others in the world.  But alas, that is the black horse of the Apocalypse...the rule of the people by economy.  So, from that perspective, it is nothing that I have the power to change.  So why even vote when there's no power to change?

America is at the point where a full blown Revolution is required to actually change things for the better.  Now, I'm not saying the state of the nation isn't influenced by the president who wins...I actually know that the opposite is true.  Because which president wins directly reflects the stance that America takes...whether Iron or Clay.

See, Iron and Clay don't mix.  But clay can be shaped easily and baked into any amount of things for the good of society.  Iron can be shaped and forged into a weapon...however, Iron rusts,  Clay does not.  Basically America can choose rule by war or rule by economy...and there is a side that desperately wants rule by war.   Why?  Because they are the ones who know they will benefit from it.   They are the ones who know that if successful, they will at least believe, they have the power to enslave the others who don't think along the same lines.  And although Iron is effective in war, it rusts in peaceful times. 

And this is where extreme prejudice comes to play.  I noticed that the side for Iron has an extreme prejudice against those they consider enemies.  Especially those who would be represented by the beatitudes:  The peace makers, the meek, the poor, the spiritually hungry, the mournful, and the merciful...and the pure.  And then there's the persecuted who they have no concern of.

There is also a religious tenacity from Iron.  It is extreme one way or another and easily sharpened.  Just as the atoms of Iron are sharpened by Iron constantly brushing it in a particular direction, so are the people of Iron.  They are easily swayed by the press that reports in the direction that it desires to take.  They are easily influenced by those who tell them what they desire to hear...whether it be the evils of their enemy or the promised fortune of their victory.  They are committed and are fierce in their dealings...whether honest, or dishonest...whether informed or ignorant.  Iron makes a good soldier, whether it be for good or for evil.  Yet this is why the party of Iron desires to recruit its own kind.  Any moisture from clay, water, or blood...that would rust it and make it not as effective.

So the party of Iron holds to what it stands for, whether right or wrong.  I notice those that even believe in Christ...or claim to, will support blatant wrong doing and corruption for the sake of the party.  Even those who call themselves Evangelical Christians will even vote against their own interests if it means they can win.  They will even sacrifice their witness.  See, only when Iron is forged in fire does it become steel, and fit for a true sword.  Only when maintained and seasoned will it be protected from rust.  These people are rusty swords not fit for any true battles of the Kingdom.   Their focus is on the battles of this world which has corrupted them. They claim to be strong, and righteous, and just, yet ignore their own corruption that goes deep within.  They have missed the point.  They have perverted their purpose and lost their pure convictions.  They have rusted and become useless trash...fit for junkyards.

Now, clay, on the other had, is admittedly filthy.  It is dirty and makes the hands unclean.  Yet it is easily molded to change shape to whatever suits it, easily washed, and forms many amazing things to hold stuff in.  When baked it becomes strong and hard, and can build homes, be painted to become beautiful works of art, and have everyday functions as plates, cups, jars, brick, and the like.   It is worthless for battle with the exception of holding oil...ultimately to be destroyed and lit on fire to burn its enemies or destroy structures.  When wielded it must be felt rather than stared at...for the hands will do the work on their own.  During molding, the eyes will distract and misshape it.

But Clay is easily smashed.  It is also very shifty and is a foolish thing to build a house upon without a foundation of strong Rock.  Yet the party of Clay has chosen to build its house on the clay of the earth which is unreliable.  It has shifted and moved and made the nation unstable.  It has committed itself towards filth which makes it even less reliable to use in the things it was created for.   It has allowed sewage to permeate it so that it reeks of immorality:  Sacrificing that which is sacred for that which brings disease.  It festers with worms who destroy the continuity of the Clay.  And worse, it has forsaken the oil for battle for wine for drinking parties, entertainment, and lustful and vain satisfactions that only hold for a short time.  It also has forsaken truth for its desires.

But I see that there is new clay being formed in the earth as well as new iron ore.  However, iron and clay do not mix...they must be used separately for their purposes if there is ever going to be strength in this nation  again.  And that is only if the nation can come together on common ground and chase the corruption out that has made it useless.

My Hatred of Whoredom

So I've been dealing with an incredibly difficult situation that I've been handling seemingly all my life.  That's my inherit jealousy and hatred towards whoredom.

So, long story short, I met a girl from worked, and yeah, I liked her and found her attractive, but I knew she wasn't right for me since she isn't a believer in Jesus Christ, but I was still wanting to be friends anyways because she liked me and we got along ok.

Well, this girl ends up hooking up with this older guy who we both work with who just got divorced (probably because he wants to bang everyone at work) and so, she thinks its all good, he thinks its all good, and I'm in utter hatred and anger about it.

Here's what kills me about it....she did this even though she liked me but she thought, along with many people at work, that I was having an affair with a married girl who I admit, was totally my type and who I really got along with well.  I was definitely tempted to the point where I just had to tell God that I couldn't handle it...it was way too strong for me but God was faithful and delivered me from an incredible mistake.  Knowing my workplace, I'm sure rumors that I was actually sleeping with this married girl from the other women employees who liked me but were trying to manipulate HER into doing something like this so that I wouldn't like her afterwords.  Well, it was ingenious because it worked.

She thought I would be open to whoredom and so tried to seduce me into pursuing a sexual relationship with her which, actually appalls me to my very soul.  So now, I've been trying to understand why I'm so angry with her when in reality I didn't even like her THAT much.  I was never spiritually attracted to her which is why I stayed away from pursing a relationship with her.  Yet I'm jealous to a strong degree and hurt and appalled all at the same time.

So, I prayed about it and asked God...why am I feeling this way...I don't even like her that much!  What I realized is that I actually love her.   Not in a wife-love type of way but in a friend type of way.  I really liked and cared for this person.  What hurt me is that when she thought she could whore out to me it basically insulted everything I've been waiting and working for which is my future wife...a suitable wife who I know the Lord will bring me someday when its time.  And me, being a vessel of God's wrath as was Jehu, soldiered up and completely stopped any kind of friendly communication with her.  She just became my enemy and now the whole relationship changed.

I already know that I'm a jealous person when it comes to women which is why I stay out of inappropriate relationships with them.  When it comes to competition with someone I would/could consider my wife, I wont do it because I'll literally kill the guy.  Even though I admit I'm a hypocrite here and didn't always follow what I believe in the past, I KNOW the reason why sex is a sacred bond between a man and his wife.  I KNOW what whoredom brings on people and that's at the very least, an incredible curse, or the will of Satan on a person's life.  At the very worst it brings upon the curse of God on a people and that is something I do not want to be part of.  I've seen it with my parents, I've seen it with friends, I've seen it from colleagues in college, I've seen it from people I've never met or cared to meet, I've seen it from coworkers.

Basically, she has a radioactive sign glowing on her now and it sucks because I really liked her and i wanted to be a positive influence in her life...not the other way around.   The guy I can care less about really....he deserves everything he's going to reap, but I hate to see her commit to a relationship so vile.  I hate that now when I see her all I can be is DEAD serious...and I have to be, because I know the fate of those who think sex is anything but the representation of the sacred love of God for his church.

Its really quite humbling and it truly makes me lonely.  But it is a loneliness I must suffer for the sake of the Kingdom and for the sake of my future wife...and I will take it to the grave.  It may be a difficult thing to suffer, but knowing what and hell is like, it is not even comparable to that kind of suffering and is well worth it Heaven's reward.

RHOX!

Its been a while...
since I've posted a blog.
And its been a while, since I've listened to "It's been a while."

Actually, I am listening to this song right now...definitely my favorite song from Staind which I really never had any interest in following, but I have to admit, that is an awesome song.

So, I'm on day 5 of my Shakeology diet.  I'm cutting out all fast food, eating fruit for breakfast, shakeology and a toast and cheese sandwich for lunch, and a healthy dinner...depending on what I make during the week.  Sunday will be my 'whatever' days...but I'm going to stay away from fast food if at all possible.  Also trying my best work out at least 3-5 times a week to lose this tire around my waist. So far, I've lost about a quarter inch.  Not too shabby but I really want this tire to get flat quick.

Last week I had so much overtime though, I didn't work out :(.  Consecutive 55 hour work weeks will take it out of you no matter what.   Regardless, I just need to get back on track.  I didn't realize how difficult it would be to lose 20 lbs.  Basically, I've gotten happy fat...maybe a little sloppy fat but not obese or super sloppy fat.  I'm already thick in the midsection as it is, but the tire needs to go away.

So, here I am taking a break between reps writing on my blog...jamming out to my Rhox playlist which is great for workouts.

By winter I should be able to get some cuttage going on unless I need to do a detox program which is very probable.

Also, I'm going to be switching to organic milk since I drink so much of it...including with Shakeology.  But hopefully, it'll help relieve my liver which I nuked since Jan-May eating at mexican restaurants which I seriously think were putting MSG in the food.   Also am not going to donate plasma for the entire summer.  It just sucks too much energy out of me for me to be able to work out and with the phat overtime I'm getting anyways, I really don't need the money right now.

Ok, time to hit the weights again....RHOX!